In response to yesterday’s Stonemaier Games’ declaration of action against racial injustice and inequality, a screenshot of a blog post I wrote in 2013 about my Roomba vacuum cleaner has been circulated. The post, like a handful of others I wrote when I was younger, is embarrassingly misogynistic, and the Roomba post in particular includes a racially insensitive name for the robot.
I am deeply ashamed of these immature and offensive posts. Over the last few years, whenever I’ve stumbled upon a post I regret or one has been brought to my attention, I’ve deleted it (I honestly don’t remember when I deleted the 2013 Roomba post—it may have been months or years ago). I was wrong to write them in the first place, and I wish I’d never said or even thought such juvenile things. I cannot change the fact that they did exist nor can I fix the harm they caused, but I have learned from them, and I can continue to do so.
There may be doubt as to whether the same person who wrote a racially insensitive blog post can be sincere about a declaration of action against racial injustice and inequality. You are right to doubt that. You are right to hold me accountable for the things I’ve said and done in the past. There is no excuse for my behavior, and I’m sorry for it.
However, the Stonemaier Games declaration of action is genuine. Given the importance of addressing racial inequality and injustice, I truly hope that my past actions will not distract from the greater cause. I’ve learned so much recently and I want to be a part of the solution. The proof will be in the effort I put forward, both in terms of the declaration and in my journey away from misogyny. If you don’t see action or growth, contact me. Send me an email or a comment on my blog. Keep me accountable, just as I will hold myself accountable.
I will make mistakes again. There will be mistakes from my past that arise still. I’ve led an open life through my blog over the last 13+ years, and I hope the evolution of the posts on it are evidence that I’m growing, maturing, and improving. I cannot defend statements and actions that misogynize, demean, hurt, hate, or harm, but I can strive to better love my fellow human beings every day.